| so here it goes. i haven't been online for a good bit and suff and i felt like i had noone to talk to cuz of my not being able to get onlin to write a entry, but hey here i am writing one...
Life right now is kinda felling apart...
Moving againd Auh, for once i would like to just stay put, things are getting relly bad at the house and i can't take it anymore...
Kevin to say the lease, I feel... well, i don't think im making happy as i sould be... or i don't know im soo lost, I kinda have a feeling that he's not happy with me and that theres someone better for him,but ihate thinking that way but i can't help it i feel that im getting pushed to the side and not being cared for this point in my life when everything breaking down? I hate getting mad at him, cuz when i do i just put myself down, and im getting to the point that im getting really depressed again and soon going to be getting back to the bad habits i always did when i'm really depressed, i don't wanna end up getting sick again, yeah you probably have no clue what im even talking bout but a few ppl do, im just looking for someone to be there for me to help me get thorugh, someone to talk to, i just wanna say this... Kevin if your reading this i just wanna tell you that i love you to death. there is not one second i don't think bout you,i'm sry if i have been pushy he past few days but you know what has been going on lately, and you know im really upset but last night and stuff,and i think you know my feeling bout you know who, im not trying to push you away i don't want to, but i am, and now i sit here crying hopeing that my mistake won't make it the last time we talk, you mean alot to me your a big piece of my heart,you took my breath away when we first meant, i love everything bout you and i would give anythng up right now to be with you tonight in your arms cuz that where i feel safe,cared and warm...
I have cryed my tears tonight,I'm just waiting for you now... |
